The desire I have to live consciously aware of God’s presence exposes habits in my life which I used to view as trivial. They aren’t major obstacles that I would, under my former way of living, consider being destructive. Nonetheless, they are disconcerting because they originate from the depth of my old nature that wants to go its own way. The evidence of the way I rationalize and reason in an attempt to justify my actions is all the proof I need for the Holy Spirit to convict me of my sin. I thank God for revealing to me that I am not as passionate about living in the awareness of His presence as I had previously thought I was. I pray for God’s help in letting go of these petty thieves.
"Catch for us the foxes, the little foxes that ruin the vineyards, our vineyards that are in bloom."
Song of Solomon 2:15
"So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!"
Romans 7:21-25