As I was growing up, I thought that I was the only person who has been with me one hundred percent of the time. Day and night, every moment of my life, I am and always have been the center of my world. Other people came and went and a few know me a lot better than others, but I considered that I am the one who can’t get away from me. When I started following Jesus, I discovered that He wanted to be the center of my life. His primary focus was, is and always will be to break me of my selfish, self-centered view of the world. Now I recognize that I haven’t been alone because He has been there all along, watching over me and guiding me, even when God wasn’t in my thoughts. At first, the changes that made me progressively more aware of Him seemed to take place over a longer period of time. Now, the changes are happening more swiftly and instead of resisting the events that crush my ego, I am welcoming them. I know that as He shatters my self-centered dreams and ambitions, I am experiencing the liberty that accompanies a life of abiding Jesus Christ.
“I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life.”
“However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.”