It was a very humbling day for me when I came to the realization that God doesn’t trust me. He loves me without reservation and He wants the very best for me. His desire for me is to have an intimate relationship with Him and progressively know Him in a much deeper way, but He will never trust me and I’m at peace about it. My ego doesn’t like that and continually feeds me ideas out of its understanding, but I have come to be cognizant of the deception and deceitfulness with which it tries to distract me from my walk with the Lord. When my ego is in control, I am my own worst enemy and I don’t trust myself either. However, there is never a situation in which I find myself that I cannot trust God. It is always a great joy for me to watch Him make everything work together for good when my circumstances appear to be in chaos. He is awesome!
“Blessed is the man who makes the LORD his trust, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods. Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare.”
Psalm 40:4-5
“What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.”
Romans 7:24-25