This has been a year of trials and difficulties. I don’t know if Job said this or the Morton Salt company, but “When it Rains, it Pours.” It has been a year of continuous pouring of difficulties/trials. We have walked with the Lord through these trials, and He has been so faithful. Just know there have been many blessings as well and God has always had His hand on our lives.
Well, about the sixth major difficulty/trial came this past November, and it gripped me with fear. I have experienced fear, but not to this depth. I felt like we were drowning. In reality, I knew that wasn’t the case, but I couldn’t shake this fear. I was extremely emotional, angry at those who messed up our lives, and very worried about our future. I believe I was holding on to the things of the world for my security, and it was causing me such fear and anxiety. I was talking to the Lord about our circumstances, but I wasn’t really letting Him have them. My husband, on the other hand, was/is concerned but at peace. He is an inspiration to me.
I have wrestled with decisions, what we should do next, and thinking I have to have all the answers. I don’t have to have all the answers; I just have to take it one day at a time. The Lord has turned my focus from circumstances to Him. He has reminded me of one of my favorite verses, 2 Corinthians 12:10: “My grace is sufficient for you, [Melinda,] for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
I receive my strength each day from His word (which is so, so good). I found this note in my Bible as I was reading in the Psalm, and it has been a great encouragement as well: “A person who spends time with God will see his adversity as an opportunity to re-experience God’s faithfulness. Go towards God, not away!”
Thank You, Lord, for Your faithfulness, patience, and love.