There has never been a time in my life that I didn’t believe in God’s existence. Neither has there been a moment when I thought that I could take His place and call myself God. Yet, the reality is that on numerous occasions I made myself the boss of my life and totally ignored the Lord. My goals and aspirations were to find activities which I thought would bring me pleasure. All the while there was only one thing God wanted from me and I was afraid to give it to Him. Now I realize that it is the only thing I can do which will give me the joy and peace I had sought for so long. He wants me to continually embrace the cross and surrender all I am to Him. I earnestly have that desire now and totally resign from the role that I was playing as my own boss. I pray that God will continually help me to live a life of absolute surrender so that I can know the Lord more intimately.
"For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to Him."
2 Chronicles 16:9
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;  in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight."