I was raised Catholic, but my faith lacked depth, and life taught me to rely on myself, leading to perfectionism and high standards. My adult life unfolded just as planned until a few years ago, when, one by one, the unexpected came crashing in — things I had worked hard to avoid. Yet, they happened anyway. When I began to see Jesus in a new light, it was as if I heard Him say, “Finally, my child, you’ve let me in. This won’t be easy but hold on to me. I’ll be with you every step.”
During that season — facing a daunting diagnosis for my child, a challenging cross-country move, work struggles, health issues, and watching a beloved soul suffer from a devastating illness — I felt like a weary fish swimming against an unyielding current. Then, my husband lost his job after 12 years, and despite his tireless efforts, he remained unemployed for over a year.
For the first time in a long time, I had no control. Completely. Utterly. I had tried everything — analyzing, planning, problem-solving — but nothing worked. I was in uncharted territory.
Like Peter, who stepped out in faith but sank in the storm, I, too, struggled. Yet, just as Jesus lifted Peter, He lifted me. Holding on to James’ words, “Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial,” I clung to hope. In June 2024, prompted by the Holy Spirit, I was baptized, and with it came peace I couldn’t explain. I knew everything would be okay because He was holding me together. When I finally listened, I felt His presence. Later that year, my husband received an incredible job offer beyond what we expected.
I’m still learning to let go of perfectionism and worry, but through it all, I’m being shaped like a diamond. Now, when anxiety clouds my mind, I surrender it to Him, trusting His peace will guide me. The journey continues, but I know this: with each step, I’m being refined, and His presence is the steady light that leads me forward. And just as He’s shaped me, He’s shaping you — trust Him and the beautiful transformation ahead.