Devotionals

This verse started as a source of confusion for me. For a long period of time, I struggled with severe anxiety that seemed to debilitate me. I felt a strong need to have a sense of control over my life. Instead of trusting my loving Father, I began to search for anything that was a quick fix to my anxiety and put my trust in that. God became a last resort.
I heard this verse quite a bit when trying to settle my anxiety. Instead of comforting me, it confused me and made me angry with God. “If His ways are higher, why won’t He fix this for me?” I remember once struggling with these thoughts so heavily to the point that I asked a mentor about them. She said, “Every anxious thought you have can be traced back to a deep-rooted lie that you have about God. Instead of trying to figure out all of the answers, go back to the basics and remind yourself of who He truly is.” After that, I was able to trace my thoughts back and realize that deep down, I did not fully understand God’s true heart.
I began to spend time with God in an effort to truly fall in love with Him, not just to fix myself, and He changed my heart. This verse was not meant to separate me from Him or confuse me. It now reminds me of His sovereignty and mercy that work hand in hand together. This verse now comforts me and reminds me that if I know Jesus and His true heart, I can confidently release my anxiety, fears, and my life’s path into His arms. It is the safest there and was always meant to be there anyway.