They say opposites attract! I would say that’s true of me and my husband, at least in some ways. He is adventurous, likes to take risks, and thinks outside the box. I like to play things safe, stick close to home, and if it fits in the box that sounds great to me!
Like in most marriages, our differences can complement each other beautifully but sometimes it can also be our point of tension. We had just had a “discussion” where we weren’t seeing eye to eye and in all honesty, I needed to apologize for some things I had said in that moment. After realizing I had been hurtful I felt pretty discouraged.
I tend to be hard on myself and beat myself up for not always getting it right. I also really like to dwell on how I messed up and how I could have done better. Not my best quality! Thankfully I’m married to a man who is quick to forgive and doesn’t hold a grudge. I wish it was that easy for me!
After working through everything and apologizing, I stepped out into our living room where my four-year-old son was playing. We have concrete floors throughout our house, so it’s the perfect spot for rollerblading and every ride-on toy you can imagine. One day I got video footage of him rollerblading through the house, while wearing a Walkman (yes, I said a Walkman) and a plastic cup taped to his chest. He was trying to throw ping pong balls into the cup while skating circles in our living room. Anyways, I digress. On that particular day he scooted through our house singing the song, Grace on Top of Grace. How did he know that was exactly what I needed to hear? In that moment, I was reminded that God’s grace covers all of my sins and I don’t need to feel guilt or shame. That moment has spoken to my heart more times than I can count.
Hallelujah I am free from my sin and penalty
At the cross You took my place
With your grace on top of grace